Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Okay time to keep it real...really real...

I have been unenthusiastic with blogging to be honest but I realized that this was my own fault. I tend to write about superficial events taking place around me when I am a very introspective person. I am constantly focused on the world within and see the world around me as the effect of the world within...an extension of it. So let's talk about my world within. Shall we?

Recently, I've been feeling confined creatively, in life, socially, etc. This was also my fault i guess in being that I feel I nonconform in a way that suits my social environment. There's a whole lot goin' on in the head of one Ilyas Nashid. And soon many will see those "things" in my head start to leak out through music, video, writing, etc. I'm not the exhibionist type but I feel compelled to "release" it in a sense. Let it pass through me out into the world. If all that I've learned just stays in my head then I guess its kind of useless and also selfish on my part.

So here goes....

Since a young child I've always been pretty "different." Strange dreams, etc. I've always been extremely intuitive...see things before they happen in my dreams. For example, believe it or not I saw the whole 9/11 thing a year before it happened. Well basically I saw the 4 buildings just standing in a dream in NY. At the time I was livin' in NC and rappin' with Donwill, so my dumbass thought it meant there would be 4 labels in NY that wanted to sign me and Donwill. LOL When I saw that visual a year later it shocked me. Yup....so I'm pretty "different."

Anyway, my life has kinda played out like the young...something...preparing to do...something...one day. Pretty vague hunh? Yeah I've been equally confused. So I've learned to be a chameleon. When you're incredibly intuitive its easy. You can kinda connect with peoples minds and being on some level where you know how to fit in with them in any environment. The most challenging environment I was in was when I worked at a mental institution. It trained me in a sense. In that environment people's minds aren't as static as the average persons. They're minds are in chaos..constantly changing. Amazingly enough all the patients loved me for the most part. I guess because I'm a little off too. LOL

So some years ago I had a ruuuude awakening of sorts. Like getting pulled out of the matrix for the 1st time. Since then I have experienced tons of bizarre phenomena. The 1st of which Carl Jung coined "synchronicity."

I see numbers all over the place right before stuff happens. The most notorious of them being 211. Usually when I see this it signifies chaos. An unexpected change in
how I perceive things happening. Sometimes its good but usually it sucks. Like my car will break down. My flight will get delayed or cancelled. Somebody will call me and argue with me. I predict that in the year 2011 a bunch of madness is going to happen to really openly signify extreme change.

There are many more numbers that I'll get to later. Many try to characterize it as a mental illness with an obsession with numbers. Or many will say you must be looking for the number and are more conscious of it. That's Bullshit. If one of the most progressive forefathers of modern psychology experienced it and dedicated the better part of his life's work to studying it...then it's probably real. And Quantum physicists have begun studying the phenomena. Synchronicity has proven to me that as chaotic and random as things seem this reality is very ordered and structured.

I see synchronicity...more specifically numerical synchronicity kind of in a video game sense. You see certain code when certain forces or patterns are forming.

Chew on that for a bit. Look up synchronicity if you dare. You should because many people are starting to experience it. Some call it a mass awakening of sorts. I just call it a shift into higher consciousness meaning many are becoming more "conscious" of their intimate connection with this reality and the world around us.

Until the next blog...